Next Day

Yesterday was a pretty decent day at work. I haven’t had one for a while, so I’m not quite sure how to define it or react to it. I also don’t want to get all gushy about it because I know how quickly it can go back to shit.

It’s the volatility that gets me. I never know what to expect. I could go in after a great day with a great attitude and have it instantly shot to shit by people changing their minds, changing directions, throwing out everything we’ve done, and having to scramble to start over. I often feel hesitant to do anything because I feel it would be a waste of time – it will just get thrown out anyway.

I need to get over that. This is a place i can change and improve. If I can just keep doing my thing I’ll reap the benefits, regardless of how it is received anywhere else. I have tried many times to manage and plan for infinite change, but that always leaves me making things that don’t satisfy me. They end up watered down and weak, without the spark that they should have, making me feel like I don’t do it well.

Today, I go for two in a row. Two good days in a row would be amazing. I’m looking forward to it.


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